header? i don't even know 'er!

what's up, folks? it's been a minute, huh.
turns out i'm gay and trance gender. and now i'm in high school, too. like i didn't have enough problems.
better news, though: i got hospitalized for a week in freshman year and can proudly say i've gotten way less depressed now. i'm on zoloft and vyvanse, sorely needed, and have survived for longer than i thought i ever would. hell, i can't count the number of important life events i've passed that i thought i wouldn't live to see. (changing my name, for example, or my sophomore year of band camp.)
life lesson: all those ex-depressed people you hear saying "it gets better" over and over again almost robotically? as much as i hate to say it, it's true- at least partly. there are days it doesn't feel better, there are days i still feel like human garbage and i can't bring myself to get out of bed, but they're way less often now, and i have people around to make sure i don't fall into depressive episodes all the time like i used to. so i guess it gets better, but only if you pick yourself up off your ass (preferably with medications as a crutch) and actually start improving it.
anyways, this is pretty much just a life update, to prove that i haven't killed myself. just forgot about this blog for a while, and was busy with other shit.
we're gucci.
signing off,
hunter

oh jesus fuck

time is an illusion it doesnt matter if i havent posted in like half a year fuck that shit

hi howre yall doing? does anyone even look at this blog anymore? i never post (as is seen by the six month hiatus) but im still here and im still queer and im always ready 2 die

this week on hunter's mind is a bad place: getting crushes on seniors and then not being able to talk to said seniors even when they're your section leader hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgh help please

one of my friends started dating another one of my friends and im glad 3 them. theyre gonna make a good couple.

oh also i got a datemate their name is lee and theyre whats keeping me from dying like 70 percent of the time maybe. theyre great and i love them a lot. were going on a date today and weve been dating for four months. longest relationship ive ever had. 100 emoji.

i have had a kinda ok year. its been really fuckin crazy. super fuckin wild. hell






gay? gay.

its been... long time

im not doin much better lads
i mean to be fair not much has happened
i graduated (got promoted, technically) and it was pretty boring
oh i have a boyfriend now
i'm gay for him, hes pretty cute
but we never actually see each other irl so its not like all the yaois
besides that:
-i started listening to more violent music
-i have a new friend (whos into vore)
-schools fucking GONE FUCKERS IM DONE
-i have a book to read for next year fuck
where is your boy tonight, i hope he is a gentleman
-ive started arting more
-maybe ill post things on my da?? who fuckin knows
-im writing better fanfiction than i used to be writing
-ive gotten better in a lot of aspects of my life i think
-but im still a fucking mess
-that never changes, it is a universal constant
-"sir were getting strange readings from the sensors"
-"whats happened donovan"
-"sir... it appears... hunter is doing fine"
-"holy shit. warn the public. the apocalypse is here"
-do i sound like dave strider? bc thats the aesthetic im going for
-oh, also, kin memories are getting me down as fuck. like, extreme down. fuck.
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is there anything else? nope!

i forgot how stressful life was and how much blogging helps with this shit
i dont have to bother my friends and boyfriend with it and then nobody has to read it and if anyone does then its sorta anonymous i guess

ok yeah has this blog gone to shit? yep

if you want some actual entertaining content, follow my tungle dot hell
(codenamealpha1.tumblr.com)

if you want the entire playlist of my life right now just listen to spotify's "pop punk powerhouses"

done

shhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttt

sHITTTTT
did i say i was gonna update regularly bc i hope not, i never update regularly? you should have learned by now fuckers
ok since last time
-i wrote a letter to my future self, with all the "sappy shit" we were supposed to have (i mostly just filled it with insults)
-i got into eddsworld (i'm so fucking gay for tord, holy shit)
thats it p much
oh and i started listening to chill-er music
thats p much it yeah
your friendly neighborhood trans gay person is here
oh also
did i forget to mention
im the fuckin nonbinariest
im unable to feel anything but gayness towards people so i gotta be nonbinary so i can be the most gay
ive succ-eeded
also ive had adventures in naming files, that was fun
i shouldnt be up this late, my dads takin me to work tomorrow, but who the hell cares ill just have sugary shit tomorrow morning
oh also i started drawing a hell of a lot more, thats a thing?? and im being a teenage rebel and literally just sitting on a hill drawing at, like, fuckin' midnight
im still a piece of fucking garbage
that will never change
-hunt

guess what (WARNING TRIGGERING)

i'm back
and just as gay as ever
yall didnt expect it but yep im back and even more of a homosexual than before
have i mentioned im nonbinary? bc i am, and its rad
THINGS ARE SHAPIN UP TO BE PRETTY ODD
sorry that hasn't stopped
it still happens
do you ever have those days where you arent even all that depressed but then you remember that youre probably annoying all your friends with your constant nagging and then you get depressed from possibly hurting your friends
oh also
another #relatable feel:
when u accidentally hurt yourself and remember when u used to cut and get so mesmerised by your own blood dripping down your hand? like its really pretty but that might also be you feeling faint because you actually lost a lot of blood with those cuts
related: when you hear that they used to bleed people as part of medical treatment and wish you lived in the middle ages, when there were no needles and cutting yourself was encouraged but then you remember you're supposed to be on the road to Mental Health and should probably stop wanting to cut
also related: when your family members come over and bring your abusive cousin and youre like 'yay trauma!!'
yeah it's fun to be me
sorry for anybody that i just triggered with my talk of actually wanting to literally damage my fucking body, just maybe dont read this post
ok well now its in the title
also speaking in terms of hating your body i literally despise these fucking curves? like can they stop with their bullshit bc i need them to stop. most 'girls' my age dont have bodies this curvy. can my body please stop doing what it's doing
hey at least i have binders now so i can have a smaller chest (IM FUCKIN 13 WHY DO I HAVE D CUPS)
so that's chill
im fuckin tired im going to bed see all you homoies
that was a typo but holy shit i gotta use that all the time now
homoies
it's the best term since sliced bread
ok but seriously see yall

update!!

has it even been one minute yet?? i don't think so
but i'm an attention whORE so lets get this ball rolling again

i just realized i didnt use any crazy formatting in my last post and i need to change that right now ok

wait have i used this before?
how about this? nope too boring
what about this? ahh perfect it's bland just like me, the piece of white bread trash that i am 😉😉😉

kms

bye

?? cryptid is back

back with more memes and suffering, here i am

by now you should understand that im either gonna update once every two minutes or once every two months there is no in between i swear to god the same fucking thing happened with my last blog

also i wrote some fanfiction its davekat but idk if anyone heres into that ship so ill just put a link here

there ya go for all you hamsteak trash like me

go ahead

im writing this blog instead of posting another chapter bc idk?

also i got really into hamilton once and that was fun, if you havent heard of it its cool i mean it opens with "how does a bastard orphan son of a whore" so if thats not fuckin cool go ahead and bite me in the ass

im sure there are people out there who would do that anyways

sadly

i mean my entire life is dedicated mostly to dicking around with my friends and reading hardcore smut at four in the morning so if thats not 'sadly' idk what is

oh shit while i was writing this somebody else clicked on the fanfic thank god i was worried nobody would read it

note: i currently have 2 hits

im starved for attention currently. im desperate and needy ok

to be fair i promote this blog all over g+ so i guess im always this needy? anyways im an emo teen well actually no im 12 currently

you know that laughing tears emoji? i fucking hate that thing. despise it with all my heart. that thing can go fuck itself. seriously fuck that thing in its yellow ass

just emoji (emojis?) in general? they can fucking fuck off except for the rams i ramspam people with those the rams can stay and maybe also the gay flag bc im gay

im a fuckin gay boi

speakin of which i rly hope my parents get me a binder and maybe some nice flannels for my bday?? that would be amazeballs PARENTS IF YOURE READING THIS well first of all i have more problems than asking for a binder if my parents are reading this shit

speaking of parents, viewer question: where are your parents? in the ground, in jail, two feet away reading this, please comment below because i dont give a fUCK about your opinion

people are gonna think im high but no im just 12 and havent slept in literally a week ok

see you in five years or five minutes